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Song in my head: Wig in a Box from Hedwig and the Angry Inch Mood: delighted Current book: travel guides Life is good. Marty and Aimee (brother and sister in law) are having another baby! I'm gonna be Auntie Aimee again! Whee!! Last night I had a few sad moments where I kinda felt like, hello, he'll be 27 with two kids and a wife and the whole package, and I'm gonna be 29 and I don't even have a boyfriend, or any real prospects (Date guy and I rescheduled for Saturday; I guess I shouldn't write him off so quickly!), blah blah poor me, poor me. Then I got over it and realized - yay, more baby, still no more work for Auntie Aimee! And wow, Chloe's gonna be a big sister. And I've been really excited because I'm starting to plan my summer vacation. I've never really travelled before, and it's so exciting to think about doing it for real. I guess I've gotten so used to thinking of myself as a non-traveller, that it's exciting to me to think of changing the way I think of myself, and expanding. So far the idea I've got is to fly to San Francisco (Jet Blue, $150 round trip!!), stay in a hostel for about a week (about $25 a night!), and sightsee my brains out. Not to mention that a bunch of people that I know from the Fat!So? boards live in the area that I can meet, so I won't be solo for the whole thing, not to mention that I can go to fat chick aerobics and dance classes, god, I think it'll be a blast. I just hope I don't love it so much I'll want to move, cause I don't want to leave NYC! (There I go again, getting ahead of myself!) And then I had lunch with Danny from across the hall, who Louis used to call Socialist Boy; he accused me of being interested in Danny on one of the days he hit me.. grrr.. the ironic part is that I never was attracted to Danny, he was just the guy I went to union meetings with, but about a month after I left Louis I started having these really explicit, hot, sexy dreams about Danny and I couldn't look him in the eye for ages, cause it was far too awkward to be talking about socialism while vividly visualizing the previous night's image of him pressing me against a wall and slamming into me with pure lust. Yikes. Well, at least now that's died down and I'm back to very very mild crush status - he's attractive and intelligent and a nice guy, but he's married. But we had a really great time at lunch and he got to telling me about how his dad is gay; his dad is a professor here at the school and a really nice guy, I didn't know he was gay at all (no gaydar for me) but it kind of makes sense now, he had that kind of appeal to me, how I totally gravitate toward older gay men, and how when Kent and John died I felt like I should run a personal ad with the headline "Fag Hag Needs Fag" - not making much sense but I got really nice vibes off of Danny's dad, and I thought it was really cool to tell me.. not that it's a huge secret or anything, but his dad's also not running around with signs up. I was really curious about what it must have been like for Danny when his dad came out of the closet, but I didn't feel comfortable asking that just yet. But we hope to have lunch again soon, so maybe then. Funny, I think Danny's my first straight male friend in a long time! Anyway, I don't believe I've accomplished any work today, so off to it! |
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